Hey Grandma
I might as well talk to you through this roundabout means of communication because lets face it, its more interesting then just sending you a message. I mean, being efficient, really?
I don't think acting is my path. It's not quantifiable, I can't just play anymore. Everything needs to be done to get better, but theres no way to know whether you are. It's becoming work, and I don't think I turn my favourite childhood activity into a profession. Acting is a wonderful pass time, but as far as life is concerned, it feels too crazy for me to handle.
I'm really feeling it for technical theatre. I mean, for one, its highly quantifiable. You hang a light, and you've hung light. Job done. Two, theres actually a good market for jobs. Three, I don't have to delve into myself and dredge out this cornucopia of feelings. (ok, not the best excuse, but still) And finally, It means I get to be part of theatre. Which is my love.
This whole situation really begs the question, will tech give me what I want. Can I find happiness through that as opposed to acting? I don't expect you to answer, grandma, but I thought it was a question worth posing.
I'll figure it out in time, I guess. Such is Life.
